little dreams
i used to think that wanting to be with someone is as easy as making up your mind; ensuring that they will always be a part of your life.
but it’s really not. it’s about the right timing, it’s about the right amount of wrong that we think we can fix in each other. it’s about knowing that you’ll always want them, regardless. it goes beyond them growing old and wrinkly or fat. what if they get into a coma? what if something happens and they’re bed ridden? are you prepared to make that sacrifice for this person?
you know, it’s so easy to tell them that you love them when things are going so well. i fall in love with him a little more, everytime the corners of his eyes crinkle when he laughs at my jokes. it’s so easy to think that you love him when he was the last person to hold you so tightly, when he is the only person who could hurt you that much, even.
mostly, being with someone is hard because you just don’t know if you can make that kind of commitment. it’s not about getting hurt again, it’s not about trying it again because we feel like we owe it to each other (we were great before, we’re going to be even better now).
it’s really about needing them only BECAUSE you love them and not just loving them because you need them.
